I was also a liberal outcast in an ultra-conservative Bush-supporting family. I have Asperger's syndrome and I was an suicidal loner who had no friends and hated everyone during High School. If it wasn't for Linkin Park's music, I would've killed myself. I spent all of 2009 absolutely obsessed with everything Linkin Park related including demos, remixes, side projects, you name it. Minutes To Midnight was actually the first Linkin Park album I bought, then I got Hybrid Theory for Christmas and bought Meteora just before holiday break ended that year. I only knew them for their hit songs on the radio. I didn't even start getting into Linkin Park until spring of 2008. Just for once I'd like to be a part of a band's musical journey during their prime. Over the last few years, I have discovered so much great music from artists that I never heard much from or even knew existed until right after they break up or they die (Silverchair, Alice In Chains, Dio, Motorhead, David Bowie, etc.) and I get pissed at myself for not having been into the music when the artist was still around or at their peak. His death will actually make me appreciate and want to listen to his music even more than I already do. One More Light really feels like a Suicide Note now but you would have never taken it that way until the tragedy actually occurred. I feel like if Sorry For Now was sung by Chester I would feel the same way about that song too. Like something has always been inside and troubling him and that he is crying out to us, to somebody, to anybody for help. Now I won't go in depth on why each one has a new meaning for me but all of these songs to me feel like cry for help. Here are the songs that I've found having different meanings so far: Unlike the rest of the thread, I've been listening to them every chance I get and only been listening to them. Yes, Lots of songs hold different meanings for me now. I keep dragging around what's bringing me down Let the sun fade out and another one riseĬlimbing through tomorrow, I'll be gone, I'll be gone
Out there in the silence, I'll be gone, I'll be gone
When the lights go out and we open our eyes, We held our breathe when the clouds began to formīut you were lost in the beating of the storm Shadow of the Day (immediately the first song i thought of after hearing the news. I'll pick just one off each record for example: It's as if the meaning to most of their songs has changed now and is a much clearer window into Chester's soul and what led to the suicide. Is it difficult for anyone else to listen to Linkin Park right now? Every song that i listen to i pick apart a haunting lyric that has a double meaning now.